I just found out about something that happened earlier in
the month that makes me a little sad and upset, but, more happy and
hopeful. I still have the pinwheels in
the shape of a 6 in my front lawn. I
wanted them to stay there for Rae Anne's Angel birthday this past week and then
for Easter, but, after what happened I'm thinking of taking them out
today.
Apparently some kids stole a
pinwheel from my lawn. Now, to most
people who don't know my story it is just a $1 pinwheel that I have hundreds
of. They think I am just some sort of
pinwheel addict that likes to use pinwheels for my outside decorations.
They don't know that 6 years ago my baby died
and that every month of that first year I put pinwheels out for the number of
months of how old she should have been as a way for me to find some sort of
peace and calm in the grief storm I was navigating my way through.
They don't know that each of those pinwheels
has a name of a beloved angel baby or child that is missed and loved and that
the big pinwheel represents angel children all over the world.
They don't know that those pinwheels were a
way for me to reach out and help others and the joy and peace that brought
me.
They don't know that when I watch
those pinwheels spinning in the wind that it brings me calm and peace and hope
that our angel children are still alive in Heaven and that we will see them
again.
They don't know that when I see
those pinwheels, I don't just see pinwheels, I see a beloved angel child and a
grieving parent who misses that child with all their heart.
They just see pinwheels, but, I see so much
more. For them 1 missing pinwheel is
nothing, for me it is a bitter tragedy.
Now if this is where the story ended it would leave me feeling bitter
and angry for the injustice and unkindness and cruelty of people in the
world. Thankfully, this is not the end
of the story, because apparently two of my neighbors kids saw the pinwheel being
stolen and they had courage and stood up for the pinwheels and were able to get
the pinwheel back. I don't know if my
neighbors kids fully understand the meaning behind all the pinwheels, but, I do
know that they understand how important they are to me and they respect that
and stood up for it and that means so much to me. Thank you Sally and Randi for raising Emily and Jack to know
the importance of choosing right from wrong and for raising them to have
courage to stand up for things, even if it was just a lowly pinwheel, because
that means the world to me and gives me hope that there are still good and kind
people in the world.
