My daughter is expecting her 1st child, my 1st grandchild, in what was suppose to be June. Last week at 35 weeks she was diagnosed with toxemia and has been at the hospital on bed rest living from blood pressure reading to blood pressure reading. It has been really hard for her and her husband. I've had melt downs because this was the week I was praying we could just hurry past and skip to past 37 weeks because 36 weeks is when I loss Janessa. Having my daughter in the hospital at this time is the worst, but, it is also in a weird way the best way for her to get past these 2 weeks because the baby is monitored 4 times a day where my daughter gets to hear the baby's heartbeat and know that she is okay. Tomorrow is that dreaded 36 weeks. It at times is hard being with my daughter in the labor and delivery room that has become their permanent home for the next 2 weeks. It is at times a big reminder of delivering Janessa, but, again maybe this was God's way to help ease me into being comfortable there so that it won't be as big of a stress for me when my granddaughter is born. It has just added some extra stress into my life and been kind of a reminder of having to go to the hospital with my Dad, at least I got use to being at a hospital so that feels like 2nd nature for me. In trying to relieve some stress and trying to recognize Hope on her b-day and not being able to do everything that I normally do, I bought my soon to be granddaughter some baby clothes with ladybugs on it.
