PinWheels From Heaven: December 2025

Welcome To PinWheels From Heaven

WELCOME TO PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN. If you would like to have your "Angel" baby's or "Angel" child's name added to my Angel Tree list and Birthday list to be remembered at my annual events please click on the Angel Tree List button found at the top of this page to take you to that page with all the details. These events are for Angel Children only--PLEASE NO fake baby loss mommys.

NOTE: Pinwheel Wait List is currently CLOSED

Be sure to scroll to the end of this page to find links to other Baby Loss Mommies who write Angel Babies Names.

ANNUAL EVENTS FOR PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN:

(1) Once your angel baby/child is on my Angel Birthday List
they will be remembered in their birthday month in a special Angel Birthday blog post and picture. They will also be remembered on their special angel b-day on my PinWheels From Heaven Face book page.

(2) Oct. 15th--Wave of Light: Each year on this date I will be creating a PinWheel Healing Field in my front yard using all the angel baby/child's pinwheels and light candles by the pinwheels in remembrance of all of our angels.

(3) Christmas Angel Tree--For the month of December I will be hanging ornaments with all of your angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. On Christmas Eve I will light candles around the Angel Tree in remembrance of all of our angels.

(4) Easter Angel Tree--For Easter I will be hanging plastic Easter eggs with all of the angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. I will light candles around the tree on Easter in remembrance of all of our angels.

Pictures of events 1,2,3,4 will be posted here on this blog and on my face book page.

At PinWheels From Heaven Angel Babies and Angel Children are ALWAYS LOVED, MISSED AND REMEMBERED <3

A Precious Gift--Never Forget Janessa & Hope Abigail

The mention of my daughter's name may bring tears to my eyes, but it never fails to bring music to my ears. If you really want to show me that you care, let me hear the beautiful music of her name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul.

"If you know someone who has lost a child, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died--you're not reminding them. They didn't forget they died.

What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that is a great gift."
-Elizabeth Edwards

Thursday, December 25, 2025

Merry Christmas in Heaven 2025

Merry Christmas

in Heaven

Janessa, Hope, Jason, & Rae Anne

And ALL Their Angel Friends!

You Are Loved!

You Are Missed!

You Are Remembered!

Friday, December 5, 2025

The Heart Remembers

The past couple of weeks I have felt really off like sad, gloomy, depressed but I have no reason to feel like this. Then I remembered that when I get like this it means my heart and body are remembering a trigger memory that my mind has either blocked or filed away. I went through Janessa's remembrance book to see what happened 15 years ago at this time. This is what I discovered:

We bought the beautiful blessing dress for Janessa that was supposed to be her blessing dress but turned into her burial dress. This dress helped me through the next couple of months of hard things through my pregnancy that were about to come up. I would go and look at this dress in my closet and remind myself it was all going to be worth is when I saw her in this dress.

This week 15 years ago we went to our first maternal fetal ultrasound because they had found calcifications in her liver on her first ultrasound so this one was going to be a more in depth ultrasound. I got to see her heart beating, I got to see her moving and kicking and giving us the thumbs up signal. They gave us the news that this calcification could mean there was something seriously wrong with Janessa and that she might pass away in my womb (foreshadowing???) They said she might have down syndrome. They wanted to do some more testing, but, I didn't want to risk having a miscarriage and I was too scared to really find out anything else so I chose the wait and see option where we would come back in a month and check to see if the calcification was worse. Now I question if I made the right choice. What if I had done the testing and they could have done something then and there. What if they would have watched me more closely and monitored her more would they have caught whatever happened??? What if all of that would have led to a live birth and in 3 months we would be celebrating her real 16th birthday???? Thing was at the 2nd maternal fetal ultrasound the calcification was completely gone like it had never been there and they said it was a miracle and that I didn't need to come back and she would be fine???? What if choosing to not do the testing gave us 3 more months to spend together???? I hate the what ifs!! This was the last time I would see Janessa alive.

It's always amazing to me how my body and heart never forget these moments even after 15 years!

Monday, December 1, 2025

December Angel Birthdays

Happy Angel Birthday

to ALL Angel Children

Celebrating Birthdays in the month

of DECEMBER!

YOU ARE LOVED!

YOU ARE MISSED!

YOU ARE REMEMBERED!

Be Still and Know that I am God

Sometimes God
Calms the Storm . . .
Sometimes He let's the Storm rage
and Calms His Child.
Author Unknown

At times there appears to be no light at the tunnel's end-no dawn to break the night's darkness. . .We feel abandoned, heartbroken, alone. If you find yourself in such a situation, I plead with you to turn to our Heavenly Father in faith. He will lift you and guide you. He will not always take your afflictions from you, but He will comfort and lead you with love through whatever storm you face.

-President Thomas S. Monson

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.
-Joseph Campbell