PinWheels From Heaven: January 2020

Welcome To PinWheels From Heaven

WELCOME TO PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN. If you would like to have your "Angel" baby's or "Angel" child's name added to my Angel Tree list and Birthday list to be remembered at my annual events please click on the Angel Tree List button found at the top of this page to take you to that page with all the details. These events are for Angel Children only--PLEASE NO fake baby loss mommys.

NOTE: Pinwheel Wait List is currently CLOSED

Be sure to scroll to the end of this page to find links to other Baby Loss Mommies who write Angel Babies Names.

ANNUAL EVENTS FOR PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN:

(1) Once your angel baby/child is on my Angel Birthday List
they will be remembered in their birthday month in a special Angel Birthday blog post and picture. They will also be remembered on their special angel b-day on my PinWheels From Heaven Face book page.

(2) Oct. 15th--Wave of Light: Each year on this date I will be creating a PinWheel Healing Field in my front yard using all the angel baby/child's pinwheels and light candles by the pinwheels in remembrance of all of our angels.

(3) Christmas Angel Tree--For the month of December I will be hanging ornaments with all of your angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. On Christmas Eve I will light candles around the Angel Tree in remembrance of all of our angels.

(4) Easter Angel Tree--For Easter I will be hanging plastic Easter eggs with all of the angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. I will light candles around the tree on Easter in remembrance of all of our angels.

Pictures of events 1,2,3,4 will be posted here on this blog and on my face book page.

At PinWheels From Heaven Angel Babies and Angel Children are ALWAYS LOVED, MISSED AND REMEMBERED <3

A Precious Gift--Never Forget Janessa & Hope Abigail

The mention of my daughter's name may bring tears to my eyes, but it never fails to bring music to my ears. If you really want to show me that you care, let me hear the beautiful music of her name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul.

"If you know someone who has lost a child, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died--you're not reminding them. They didn't forget they died.

What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that is a great gift."
-Elizabeth Edwards

Monday, January 27, 2020

6 Weeks to Janessa's 10th Angel B-day

Jan 27--Take care of yourself this week. Write down 10 things you like about yourself and repeat 10 times this mantra to yourself this week: "I am a beloved Daughter/Son of Heavenly Parents with a divine nature and eternal destiny."

It is interesting that 2 of the Mondays that are part of this 10 week countdown are hard trigger days for me regarding my Dad. Today is the first hard day--January 27th. 2 years ago on this day I watched my Dad pass away from complications associated with his stroke. I chose take care of yourself because with grief I have had a hard time not blaming myself and talking negatively to myself.

Monday, January 20, 2020

7 Weeks to Janessa's 10th Angel B-day

Jan 20--Donate $10 to someone this week.

For Janessa's 4th Angel b-day I started putting the pinwheels out into the shape of her age. I will probably only do this until her 12th b-day. I had my 3rd miscarriage this year and it was the last time I was able to get pregnant so all my dreams of having a rainbow baby disappeared this year with my 4th angel baby.

Monday, January 13, 2020

8 Weeks to Janessa's 10th Angel B-day

Jan 13th--Notice 10 acts of kindness around you or in the news and write them down.

I started writing Janessa's name creatively this year. I chose noticing acts of kindness in memory of the small acts of kindness people have done for me like a nurse at the hospital who held Janessa and talked to her and treated her like she was an alive baby and who took pictures of Janessa with little stuff animals. For another nurse who made a blanket for us. For the many people who gave us money to help pay for her headstone and funeral. For the many people who have written Janessa's name and kept her memory alive by saying her name and writing her name.

Thursday, January 9, 2020

January 9th 2010--10 Years Ago

January 9th, 2010--10 Years Ago

Happy and Sad Memory

Today it is 2 months--60 days to Janessa's Angel B-day.  10 years ago today we took our family to see the movie The Princess and the Frog.  It was an okay movie--not one of my favorites, but, Janessa loved it. The music was so loud and every time a song came on she would roll and kick and dance inside me. It was really cute. Little did I know that 2 months from this date she would become an angel and there would be no more dancing. I ordered the dvd of that movie and it came a couple weeks after Janessa died--it sits untouched on the shelf collecting dust to this day--I haven't ever been able to bring myself to rewatch it.

I love that I have the memories of her moving and kicking inside me to the music of this movie because as time passes some times it feels like Janessa never existed at all, but, these memories contradict that thought because she did exist, she did live, she expressed joy and happiness and heard music even if it was just inside of me.  Such happy and sad memories for today.  I wish I could relive that time knowing then what I know now. I would have done a 60 day bucket list with Janessa to let her enjoy what was left of her little life.

Monday, January 6, 2020

9 Weeks to Janessa's 10th Angel Birthday

Jan 6th--Count to 10 this week and take a breath before you get upset at something or someone this week.

I was definitely more comfortable being at the cemetery her 2nd angel year. I was able to express my grief through creativity, but, I had a lot of moments of frustration with others who expected me to be over my grief already and not understanding or having any sympathy and I also experienced my first miscarriage of my angel baby Hope Abigail. I had to have a lot of patience and count to 10 a lot this year.

Wednesday, January 1, 2020

January Angel Birthdays

Happy Angel Birthday

to All Angel Children celebrating

birthdays in the month of January!

YOU ARE LOVED!

YOU ARE MISSED!

YOU ARE REMEMBERED!

Be Still and Know that I am God

Sometimes God
Calms the Storm . . .
Sometimes He let's the Storm rage
and Calms His Child.
Author Unknown

At times there appears to be no light at the tunnel's end-no dawn to break the night's darkness. . .We feel abandoned, heartbroken, alone. If you find yourself in such a situation, I plead with you to turn to our Heavenly Father in faith. He will lift you and guide you. He will not always take your afflictions from you, but He will comfort and lead you with love through whatever storm you face.

-President Thomas S. Monson

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.
-Joseph Campbell