With all the stress going on with my Dad's stroke, my Mom has been opening up about some of her pregnancy losses. I have discovered that she was about 4 months along with her last baby that she loss in 1977. In those days they didn't let you see the baby they just told you to forget about it and pretend it didn't happen. Stupid thing to say to someone. So my sibling who I'm saying is the baby brother I never got has been "forgotten and not remembered" for the past 40 years this year. That makes me so sad for my Mom who never got the chance to grieve this child and so sad for my brother who has never been spoken of. I decided to change that this year, especially because it has been 40 years. I got a remembrance stone for him and placed it behind my angel babies stones. I've chosen May 31st as his remembrance date because in my family we have 3 girls and he would be the 1 boy. All I have of him is 1 picture taken when I was 6 years old of my sisters and I and my Mom with her pregnant belly all standing in front of flowers.
Happy 40th Angel Birthday
"Baby J"
You are Loved, Missed, and Remembered
I can't wait to meet you.
My precious lil' Brother
Gosh, even trying to do my little angel b-day celebrations today has proven to be difficult because my Dad had another stroke and I spent all night and all day at the hospital. I had to squeeze time in the evening before it got dark to decorate Baby J's remembrance stone, blow bubbles and light a candle. I was bound determined he was not going to be forgotten one more year.
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