These are 70 ft trees that have been growing in our yard for the past 16 years. We all had kind of an attachment to them. They provided shade and privacy from our back neighbors which was nice. In 2011, they stood has silent guards over my remembrance garden that I set up in remembrance of my angel babies. They held each of their wind chimes and wind spinners. They were suppose to be my new Angel Trees and a place for me to put my wind chimes, now I have nothing--no where to put anything. All these changes from our construction have been extremely difficult and this has been another hard one for me. We were kind of forced into it by the tree removal place that came to just give us an estimate in the middle of a snow blizzard, but, then kind of bullied their way into the back and chopped them down. We did get a good price, cheaper than the other company we were going to use and we didn't have to worry about having another big crane placed in our yard that would have ruined more grass. These guys just climbed the trees like monkeys and chopped it apart branch by branch in a blizzard. They left the mess there overnight and then came back today to clean up and leave us with a stump and very empty area--matches how my heart feels like right now. I'm glad to have it over with and not have to worry about it all winter, but, it was too soon! I did NOT like being bullied into removing these trees before I was ready. I can't handle sudden changes--it freaks me out because that's what Janessa's death was--a sudden change. This is all very triggering for me. I hate it.
Eventually I'll get use to this change too and figure out a new use for this area, but, for now I weep for my two remembrance trees. :`(
BEFORE
AFTER
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