Happy Angel Birthday
to ALL Angel Children
Celebrating Birthdays in the month
of July!
YOU ARE LOVED!
YOU ARE MISSED!
YOU ARE REMEMBERED!
Janessa's PinWheels
Janessa's 10th Angel Birthday
Hope's 7th Angel Ticker
Jason's 6th Angel B-day Ticker
Rae Anne 6th b-day Ticker
Our Anniversary
Monday, July 1, 2024
Saturday, June 1, 2024
June 2024 Angel Birthdays
Happy Angel Birthday
to All Angel Children celebrating
birthdays in the month of
June!
YOU ARE LOVED!
YOU ARE MISSED!
YOU ARE REMEMBERED!
Tuesday, May 7, 2024
Happy 13th Angel Birthday Hope Abigail
Happy 13th Angel Birthday
to my Precious
<3 Hope Abigail <3
You are Always in My Heart!
Wednesday, May 1, 2024
May 2024 Angel Birthdays
Happy Angel Birthday
to All Angel Children celebrating
birthdays in the month of
May!
YOU ARE LOVED!
YOU ARE MISSED!
YOU ARE REMEMBERED!
Tuesday, April 30, 2024
Stolen Future
One of the reasons I hate going to get my hair cut is that they always ask you how many kids you have. My normal answer now is 7, I just include Janessa, Hope, Jason, & Rae Anne all together as that 7th kid and I don't really expand on ages or anything like that. Now that my living kids are older I also get asked the how many of them are married and how many grandkids do you have questions too. Especially when she started going on and on about how I was going to have so many grandkids with 7 kids--I wish! I guess it just got me thinking today about how I've been cheated of meeting 4 future son and daughter in laws, 4 future weddings, and future grandchildren that will not be and that kind of made me sad.
Thursday, April 25, 2024
Jason's 10th EDD
Really missing you today and what could have been my precious little <3 Jason <3 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
Your little life ended too soon and was not complete so maybe instead of the end we can say
TO BE CONTINUED . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
You are Missed!
You are Remembered!!
YOU ARE LOVED 4 EVER!!!!
Monday, April 1, 2024
April 2024 Angel Birthdays
Happy Angel Birthday
to All Angel Children celebrating
birthdays in the month of
April!
YOU ARE LOVED!
YOU ARE MISSED!
YOU ARE REMEMBERED!
Sunday, March 31, 2024
Happy Easter!
Happy Easter
Angel Children in Heaven!
You are Missed! <3
You are Remembered! <3
You are Loved! <3
<3 We can't wait to see you again! <3
Saturday, March 30, 2024
Wednesday, March 27, 2024
Rae Annes 10th Angel Birthday
I wasn't exactly sure how to remember Rae Anne on her 10th angel b-day. I knew I wanted to do something different and unique but we didn't have a lot of money to do much. I also wanted to recognize the fact that she was my 10th pregnancy, my 10th child, and that she was the last baby I have gotten pregnant with in the past 10 years. 10 was a pretty big number this year. I decided to plan a trip to Manti because the Manti Temple had been closed for remodeling and was having an open house the weekend of her angel b-day. The Manti Temple has had a lot of history in my past. They use to do the Manti Pageant on the grounds of the temple which was always fun to go to as a kid and then when we took our kids. 10 years ago on Janessa's 4th angel b-day we went to Manti to stay and then on to Arches National Park. It was on that trip that I was suspecting that I was pregnant with Rae Anne.
So it was the perfect spot to return to 10 years later to remember her. We even stayed in room 10! I wish I had been given the opportunity to have a rainbow baby, but, I'm grateful for the 6 living children that I do have and the 4 Angel Babies that I will get to see again. <3
Saturday, March 23, 2024
Rae Anne's 10th Angel Birthday
Happy 10th Angel Birthday
to my lil
<3 Rae Anne <3
You were my surprise pregnancy after miscarrying Jason. I discovered I was pregnant with you on Janessa's 4th angel b-day. We were at Arches National Park so that is why I associate the color orange/peach with you. We were only together for 6 short weeks, barely enough time to even say hello and goodbye. You represent the end of my pregnancy years because I was never able to get pregnant again after you. It is hard to believe 10 years has passed. I would give anything to go back in time and finish my pregnancy with you and have you be my alive rainbow baby. I would love to be celebrating your 10th real birthday. Instead it is another empty day filled with memories only I have. We eat orange foods in memory of you but for the most part I remember you alone now.
You Are Missed! You Are Remembered! You Are Loved!
Love, Mommy
Saturday, March 9, 2024
Janessa's 14th Birthday Party at the Cemetery
We very hesitantly went to the cemetery today to
decorate Janessa's grave. Every other time we have tried this week something
has come up that has prevented us from going to the cemetery. I did NOT want to
go today because I hate being at the cemetery on her birthday, it is NOT a fun
place to be on her birthday.
Everything turned out okay, her birthday rose petals were still very fresh, all of my decorations turned out so pretty, and the ground was soft enough to get the things into the ground easily but not damp so we could sit by her grave. I was so happy to see when we got there that my winter butterfly crochet blanket was still covering her grave. I actually enjoyed decorating her grave and having time to just sit and remember her.
I think that is why it didn't work out to decorate her grave earlier because we wouldn't have had time to just sit still
in front of her grave and just think, look at pictures, listen to music, feel peace and calm and cry which is something both my husband and I needed today.
We also for the first time got to sing Happy Birthday to her because we have never been there on her birthday before.
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