PinWheels From Heaven: Happy 4th Angel Birthday Janessa

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WELCOME TO PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN. If you would like to have your "Angel" baby's or "Angel" child's name added to my Angel Tree list and Birthday list to be remembered at my annual events please click on the Angel Tree List button found at the top of this page to take you to that page with all the details. These events are for Angel Children only--PLEASE NO fake baby loss mommys.

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Be sure to scroll to the end of this page to find links to other Baby Loss Mommies who write Angel Babies Names.

ANNUAL EVENTS FOR PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN:

(1) Once your angel baby/child is on my Angel Birthday List
they will be remembered in their birthday month in a special Angel Birthday blog post and picture. They will also be remembered on their special angel b-day on my PinWheels From Heaven Face book page.

(2) Oct. 15th--Wave of Light: Each year on this date I will be creating a PinWheel Healing Field in my front yard using all the angel baby/child's pinwheels and light candles by the pinwheels in remembrance of all of our angels.

(3) Christmas Angel Tree--For the month of December I will be hanging ornaments with all of your angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. On Christmas Eve I will light candles around the Angel Tree in remembrance of all of our angels.

(4) Easter Angel Tree--For Easter I will be hanging plastic Easter eggs with all of the angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. I will light candles around the tree on Easter in remembrance of all of our angels.

Pictures of events 1,2,3,4 will be posted here on this blog and on my face book page.

At PinWheels From Heaven Angel Babies and Angel Children are ALWAYS LOVED, MISSED AND REMEMBERED <3

A Precious Gift--Never Forget Janessa & Hope Abigail

The mention of my daughter's name may bring tears to my eyes, but it never fails to bring music to my ears. If you really want to show me that you care, let me hear the beautiful music of her name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul.

"If you know someone who has lost a child, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died--you're not reminding them. They didn't forget they died.

What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that is a great gift."
-Elizabeth Edwards

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Happy 4th Angel Birthday Janessa

Happy 4th Angel Birthday

JANESSA!

<3 <3 <3 <3

This birthday you have reached your due date age 4/04/2010.

As the days and months and years slip by I still find myself wanting so badly to see you and hold you. I feel so cheated of these years and moments that have been taken away. It still hurts to see others go through their entire pregnancy and come back with an alive baby. I'm forced to see that happen every year at this time in this neighborhood and it does not get any easier.

I wanted so much for this angel birthday to be so different. I wanted to be 8 months pregnant with your rainbow brother and have him to help me through you and Hope's angel birthdays this year. But, instead he joined you in Heaven and I am now having to face this alone again without the hope I have had the past 3 years that I would have another living baby. Some days are so very hard and empty.

I pray that others will remember you this day. I guess that is my biggest fear as the years go by that everyone will forget you and Hope and Jason and that hurts as much as this day in 2010 when I found out you had died. I will never forget you. As long as I am living I will remember you and honor you and you will live on through me.

I miss you more each year. Sometimes the pain and hurt I feel is indescribable and I don't know how to keep moving forward, but, somehow, someway I do.

I Love You!

Love, Mommy

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Be Still and Know that I am God

Sometimes God
Calms the Storm . . .
Sometimes He let's the Storm rage
and Calms His Child.
Author Unknown

At times there appears to be no light at the tunnel's end-no dawn to break the night's darkness. . .We feel abandoned, heartbroken, alone. If you find yourself in such a situation, I plead with you to turn to our Heavenly Father in faith. He will lift you and guide you. He will not always take your afflictions from you, but He will comfort and lead you with love through whatever storm you face.

-President Thomas S. Monson

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.
-Joseph Campbell