PinWheels From Heaven: 1 in 160

Welcome To PinWheels From Heaven

WELCOME TO PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN. If you would like to have your "Angel" baby's or "Angel" child's name added to my Angel Tree list and Birthday list to be remembered at my annual events please click on the Angel Tree List button found at the top of this page to take you to that page with all the details. These events are for Angel Children only--PLEASE NO fake baby loss mommys.

NOTE: Pinwheel Wait List is currently CLOSED

Be sure to scroll to the end of this page to find links to other Baby Loss Mommies who write Angel Babies Names.

ANNUAL EVENTS FOR PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN:

(1) Once your angel baby/child is on my Angel Birthday List
they will be remembered in their birthday month in a special Angel Birthday blog post and picture. They will also be remembered on their special angel b-day on my PinWheels From Heaven Face book page.

(2) Oct. 15th--Wave of Light: Each year on this date I will be creating a PinWheel Healing Field in my front yard using all the angel baby/child's pinwheels and light candles by the pinwheels in remembrance of all of our angels.

(3) Christmas Angel Tree--For the month of December I will be hanging ornaments with all of your angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. On Christmas Eve I will light candles around the Angel Tree in remembrance of all of our angels.

(4) Easter Angel Tree--For Easter I will be hanging plastic Easter eggs with all of the angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. I will light candles around the tree on Easter in remembrance of all of our angels.

Pictures of events 1,2,3,4 will be posted here on this blog and on my face book page.

At PinWheels From Heaven Angel Babies and Angel Children are ALWAYS LOVED, MISSED AND REMEMBERED <3

A Precious Gift--Never Forget Janessa & Hope Abigail

The mention of my daughter's name may bring tears to my eyes, but it never fails to bring music to my ears. If you really want to show me that you care, let me hear the beautiful music of her name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul.

"If you know someone who has lost a child, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died--you're not reminding them. They didn't forget they died.

What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that is a great gift."
-Elizabeth Edwards

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

1 in 160

Some days it doesn't bother me at all to see 5 year olds and other days it hurts so bad it's like I've been stabbed with a knife. Today was one of those bad days. As I was coming home after running errands there was all these parents walking their 5 year olds down to the elementary school for afternoon kindergarten. I guess I forget that not every 5 year old died in 2010, but, there were probably 159 other women in this area who went into the hospital in 2010 and came out with a living baby who has grown and now goes to Kindergarten, I'm that unlucky "1" in the 160 who had a still born baby. I'm that unlucky one who came home from the hospital empty handed and broken hearted. I'm that 1 in 160 who did NOT get to see their baby learn to roll, sit up, crawl, walk, talk, play, run, and grow. I'm that 1 in 160 who did NOT get to experience the terrible twos or potty training. I'm that 1 in 160 who did NOT get to watch their child's excitement at holidays and birthdays and watching them learn their abc's and 123's and how to write their name, and now I am that 1 in 160 who does NOT get to see their child in Kindergarten. So what does the 1 in 160 get to do instead? Every month for the past 5 1/2 years I have gotten to visit a cemetery plot and decorated a little grave and wept for the experiences we are NOT having together.

We had a bunch of new families move into this area and they all seem to have 5 year olds the same age as Janessa. It hurts so much to see that. I wish I wasn't so sensitive to all of this. It seems I do okay for a while with being okay and accepting of Janessa's death, and then seeing those little 5 year olds just rips the scab right off my heart and opens the wound as I long to have Janessa back--it's just not fair, she should be here--she should not be dead. Reality is a very harsh thing to deal with at times.

It is amazing to me at how seeing such little things sets off such an array of emotions in me. I wish I was NOT that 1 in 160! I wish I was NOT that 1 in 4! I wish it wasn't so hard to be that 1 in 160 and that 1 in 4!!!

1 in 4 women have a miscarriage

1 in 160 women have a still born baby

I AM THAT 1

(4 times over!)

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Be Still and Know that I am God

Sometimes God
Calms the Storm . . .
Sometimes He let's the Storm rage
and Calms His Child.
Author Unknown

At times there appears to be no light at the tunnel's end-no dawn to break the night's darkness. . .We feel abandoned, heartbroken, alone. If you find yourself in such a situation, I plead with you to turn to our Heavenly Father in faith. He will lift you and guide you. He will not always take your afflictions from you, but He will comfort and lead you with love through whatever storm you face.

-President Thomas S. Monson

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.
-Joseph Campbell