We went to visit him a couple of weeks ago and he seemed in good spirits. I wanted so badly to ask him to hug Janessa for me when he got to Heaven and tell her that I loved her and missed her, but, it just seemed kind of awkward to talk about then. I'm pretty sure knowing Del that he knew what was in my heart and probably did it anyway.
I feel sadappy today. I am happy for Uncle Del because he doesn't have to suffer anymore and because he was a child loss parent and has finally been reunited with his beloved son, Dannhy, that passed away so many years ago. I'm sad because I feel bad for his wife and his other children and grandchildren, for my husband, and my father-in-law who have to say goodbye for now to a beloved, husband, father, grandpa, uncle and brother.
I found myself unable to sleep last night and weeping through the night for an Uncle I'm only related to through marriage. Why am I taking his death so hard? I think it is because this man has played a big part in my life. When my husband and I first got married he gave my husband a job while he was looking for a job in area he had just graduated from college from. That was a blessing, because it took 10 very long and hard months before that job appeared. He got a health insurance policy with pregnancy benefits that we were able to get on which was a blessing because my first baby ended up being a c-section baby and the cost without insurance would have ruined us.
Years later this same Uncle called us in the hospital after Janessa died to comfort us because He knew from experience what it was like to bury a child. We were so lost and confused trying to figure out where to bury Janessa and we didn't have anyone that would step in and help us or guide us until Uncle Del called and offered a cemetery plot next to my husbands' Grandparents graves. Not only did he offer it, but, he made all the arrangements and paid for all the fees associated with it. That was such a great relief to us. The day of Janessa's graveside service a potted plant and a card with money arrived at our house signed by Uncle Del and his family. At the cemetery another beautiful flower arrangement had been paid for by Uncle Del and delivered to decorate her grave. And it was Uncle Del who spoke at Janessa's graveside service and helped give us words of comfort. I can never repay Uncle Del for all he has done for us. I hope Janessa thanks him in Heaven for helping us. It was such a blessing to have someone like him to turn to who truly understood what we were going through when Janessa died--people like that were far and few between.
Goodbye for now Uncle Del--I will cherish your last sunrise forever <3
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