2 1/2

My sweet Janessa you would be 2 1/2 today.  You're my only child that I celebrate 1/2 birthdays with.  I guess because your angel birthday is in March and it is normally cold and sometimes snowing and raining so I can't decorate your grave with real flowers then.  On your half birthday I can leave you real roses and balloons.  Time seems to slip away quickly and slowly at the same time now.  I've turned my focus to butterflies because you were my beautiful butterfly that flew away too soon and because I feel like for the past 2 1/2 years I have been wrapped in a cocoon of grief that I am slowly trying to emerge from and become a new butterfly (a blm mommy who has a new perspective on life and what is really important).  I will never forget you!  I am a better person because of you!  I will always remember and honor your memory, even though others have forgotten you and try to erase you from existence!  As I spread my wings to fly in this "new normal" life I have been given, you and Hope are part of the beautiful pattern of my wings and you are the wind beneath my wings to help me fly.

I Love You, my precious angel Janessa!

 

Love, Mommy




30 little butterflies for the number of months Janessa has been gone.