Was scheduling my daughter's next orthodontist appt. and the date that came up March 9th--took my breath away. I instantly said sorry that date won't work for us and scheduled it for another day. Talk about Deja vu--6 years ago on that date this same daughter was scheduled to get her pre braces retainers removed at 11:30 am March 9th, 2010. That appt. got cancelled and instead at that time I was in maternal fetal "evil" place looking at an ultrasound of Janessa being told "I'm so sorry there is no heart beat your baby is dead." 12 little words that changed my life forever.
So NO, orthodontist appt.'s don't work out for us on that date. I ended up switching orthodontist because that office became a trigger for me. Anything that was scheduled on that day in 2010 has become a trigger for me like my church's yw New Beginnings program which was held that evening in 2010 and is held that same week every year that I can't go to either. It's hard right now because January and February are both copying the same days of the week like in 2010, but, thank goodness for leap day Feb. 29th this year that bumps March 9th from Tuesday to Wed.--I won't have to relive the same day of the week until I think her 12th angel b-day which is fine with me! I could not handle having her angel b-day on the same day of the week--Tuesday this year. It is already going to be really hard in May because Hope's 5th angel b-day is on the same day of the week and on Mother's Day weekend which is double whammy for me. I can't even function that whole week and having these copy cat things from 6 years ago start to reappear on that date is causing me some anxiety.
How can Janessa's angel b-day be only 6 weeks away from today?
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