Have You Lost Weight?

When I was younger I loved it when people asked me this question--finally, someone had noticed that I'm trying to loose those extra 30 pounds!  I got asked that the other day and I just mumbled a quick yes and changed the conversation.  That question has set off trigger emotions in me today.  I hate that question now.  Yes, I've lost weight because I was pregnant, but, now my baby is gone so my body has no reason to gain weight anymore.  I wish I wasn't loosing weight, even though I still have a lot more weight to get off.  Exercising has helped me through this past year.  It gives me a chance to work out all those wild emotions I feel, anger, sadness, fear, etc., I guess I should be grateful that one of the benefits is that I am loosing weight.  I'd trade all that lost weight to have my babies back. 

I should be almost 6 months pregnant--people should not be asking me that question.  They should be asking instead if my baby's due soon because I'm so huge.  But, hardly anyone knows that I had even started to gain weight and that I sit here today lighting a candle in honor of my angel baby.

Have you lost weight?  Unfortunately I have.

Happy 3 Month Angel Birthday Hope!  I miss you!

 Hugs,

:`)  Shauna  :`{

:)  Janessa & Hope's Mommy  :)