I have been feeling so alone the past little while. It's like I don't feel like I fit into any group any more and some days I feel like I'm just wandering lost and alone with all these complicated feelings rumbling around in my head and heart. I read a post by Tesha that really touched my heart. It verbalized everything I have been feeling for the past little while and it made me cry to see that I'm not alone in my feelings. Thank you Tesha for sharing the emotions from your heart and helping me to be able to share mine. I copied some of her post and changed the wording a little to reflect the feelings from my heart.
What I need right
now . . . . . . .
Someone to cry with me.
Someone to NOT want to fix me.
Someone to forgive me.
Someone to listen to the same sadness again
and again and again.
Someone to say I thought of Janessa &
Hope today.
Someone to love me in spite of myself.
Someone to look past my defensiveness and anger
and bitterness and sometimes just plain crazy feelings and see my hurting,
broken heart.
Someone to send sunshine.
Someone to understand how much I want to feel
joy and happiness again and want to be able to live again with my losses woven
into my life's experiences but, sometimes how I'm afraid to trust real life.
Someone to not look the other way or change
the subject when I mention her name.
Someone to not judge what they have never
walked through.
Someone to make me feel normal
Someone to understand that even though they
have walked through loss we are different.
Someone to hang in there for the long haul.
Someone to not remain silent when they see me
struggling because they don't know what to do or say--give me a hug--say you're
praying for me--say you're sorry for my loss--say you're thinking of me and
love me.
Someone to say it's Ok that you're
struggling.
Someone to let me grieve in my way and on my
time schedule.
Someone to know how I feel.
Someone to show true empathy and sensitivity
to my feelings.
Someone to pray for me.
Someone to mourn with me.
Someone to walk beside me.
Hugs,
:`( Shauna :`(
:)Janessa & Hope's Mommy:)
Im sorry you are feeling so alone. Hoping you find peace.
ReplyDeleteWe are all here especially when you feel lost, and we stick together when everyone else fails us. I hope you can find your way to the surface again soon...big hugs and lots of prayers to lift you up friend xoxoxo Nan
ReplyDelete(((Hugs))) I want you to know I think very often and love to read your comments on my blog. Thank You for all that you do it really means a lot to so many. I love checking in here and seeing what you have written and the birthday in heaven pictures. I should comment more so you know that I am around. I dislike the feelings of a lone and know you are not even in times when it feels like we are. I pray that you can feel joy again with your sweet angels in your life. Lots and lots of love to you. Heidi
ReplyDeleteIm here for you! I think your great and love reading your blog!! Email me at brigey5689@gmail.com I can even give you my numbet if you ever wanna chat.
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