April at Last

My countdown to spring ended on April 1st.  It was so fun to remove a post it note each week to reveal a beautiful spring picture!!  It really helped me to endure the drudgery and depression of the cold, snowy, winter.  I was so happy to see that on my first day of spring the sunrise came through my bedroom window and I got my first rainbow through my crystal I have hanging in that window.  That was definitely a sign of spring for me.  Love seeing rainbows in the morning and evenings from now until Fall.

I woke up in tears yesterday having a panic attack because of my church's General Conference.  This has been a hard weekend for me since Janessa died because it was the weekend of her due date when she was to be born.  I had so many hopes and dreams ripped away from me this weekend 6 years ago and it is hard to remember all of that.   I also looked forward to this weekend 3 years ago when I was pregnant with Jason because I knew once I reached conference weekend there was only 3 weeks to go until his due date.  I almost had hoped that he would be born on conference weekend to make up for Janessa dying before her due date--now I just have 2 false hopes this month.

I was comforted this morning to walk into my room and see that my cat had snuggled up to Rae Anne's litte orange teddy bear peacefully sleeping by it.  Even my cat finds comfort in Rae Anne's little bear!! <3 :)