PinWheels From Heaven: Birthday Blues

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WELCOME TO PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN. If you would like to have your "Angel" baby's or "Angel" child's name added to my Angel Tree list and Birthday list to be remembered at my annual events please click on the Angel Tree List button found at the top of this page to take you to that page with all the details. These events are for Angel Children only--PLEASE NO fake baby loss mommys.

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ANNUAL EVENTS FOR PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN:

(1) Once your angel baby/child is on my Angel Birthday List
they will be remembered in their birthday month in a special Angel Birthday blog post and picture. They will also be remembered on their special angel b-day on my PinWheels From Heaven Face book page.

(2) Oct. 15th--Wave of Light: Each year on this date I will be creating a PinWheel Healing Field in my front yard using all the angel baby/child's pinwheels and light candles by the pinwheels in remembrance of all of our angels.

(3) Christmas Angel Tree--For the month of December I will be hanging ornaments with all of your angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. On Christmas Eve I will light candles around the Angel Tree in remembrance of all of our angels.

(4) Easter Angel Tree--For Easter I will be hanging plastic Easter eggs with all of the angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. I will light candles around the tree on Easter in remembrance of all of our angels.

Pictures of events 1,2,3,4 will be posted here on this blog and on my face book page.

At PinWheels From Heaven Angel Babies and Angel Children are ALWAYS LOVED, MISSED AND REMEMBERED <3

A Precious Gift--Never Forget Janessa & Hope Abigail

The mention of my daughter's name may bring tears to my eyes, but it never fails to bring music to my ears. If you really want to show me that you care, let me hear the beautiful music of her name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul.

"If you know someone who has lost a child, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died--you're not reminding them. They didn't forget they died.

What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that is a great gift."
-Elizabeth Edwards

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Birthday Blues

Last week was my youngest living daughters birthday--she turned 6. Her birthday was really hard on me for a couple of reasons. First because her birthday is the last birthday in our family that Janessa went through with me and I have vivid memories of being 8 months pregnant trying to decorate a cake and wrapping presents. Also, hers was the last birthday when I was the "old" before grief Shauna.

Second, I am now officially out of the baby/toddler/preschool stage at our house. This is good because it means my kids are growing up and becoming more independent like it should be, but, this is bad/sad because I love the baby/toddler/preschool stage because it is fun/hard and my kids need me a lot more than they do in the older stages of their life. It is difficult because I should be experiencing all the stages right now--teenagers, preteen, child, AND Toddler AND Baby stage--death has stolen my last experiences to go through the Baby/Toddler/Preschooler stage again and that is very hard and seems very CRUEL.

I made my daughter a Tangled cake because that is her favorite movie and because it has special meaning to me regarding Janessa and Hope. I put 2 small icing butterflys on her cake that no one knew the meaning of; they represented Janessa and Hope so when my daughter blew out her candles, for me it was like she blew out candles for both Janessa and Hope too.

I think along with the grief, that I'm going through a little mid-life crisis because it is hard to see what role I play now or fit into, I feel a little confused and lost.

Hugs,

:`) Shauna :`(

:)Janessa & Hope's Mommy:)

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Be Still and Know that I am God

Sometimes God
Calms the Storm . . .
Sometimes He let's the Storm rage
and Calms His Child.
Author Unknown

At times there appears to be no light at the tunnel's end-no dawn to break the night's darkness. . .We feel abandoned, heartbroken, alone. If you find yourself in such a situation, I plead with you to turn to our Heavenly Father in faith. He will lift you and guide you. He will not always take your afflictions from you, but He will comfort and lead you with love through whatever storm you face.

-President Thomas S. Monson

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.
-Joseph Campbell