I miss my angel babies, Janessa & Hope, today. My arms are empty, my heart is broken, nothing is filling the holes they left behind. I've seen too many reminders and triggers today.
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Thank You Gabriel's Mommy for writing Janessa and Hope's Names <3
It's hard to explain this,
but....there is a feeling that overcomes a parent of child loss that brings us
to tears when we see other families who look happy and whole. When we see them,
it feels like the hole in our heart grows bigger -- the hole that was left by
child loss. If we've lost a baby, it seems like every woman we see has a round,
pregnant belly. If we've lost a young child, everywhere we look we see children
that age happily playing. If we've lost a teenager, of course our eyes seem to
see only teenagers busy with things like school, sports, driving, dating, etc.
If we've lost an older child, it seems like everyone we talk to is sharing
their bragging rights to what their child is doing, when their child got
married, etc. It hurts so bad to lose a child! We never, ever wish bad on
another, but sometimes it crushes us to see them so happy and whole while our
heart has been broken into a million and one pieces by the loss of our child!
-From Silent Grief.com
Thank You Grace's Mommy for writing Janessa and Hope's Names <3
We each have our way of dealing with the
pain of losing a child. There's really no right or wrong way of doing this
thing called "walking through the grief of child loss." Some days we
scream. Other days we quietly withdraw. Sometimes we want to remember. Other
times we force ourselves not to remember too much because the pain is too
crushing. One thing that is universal, though, is that losing a child is the
most horrible, life-long pain a person will ever experience. It's the
"missing my child so much I want to die" part that is so hard. How do
you stop missing your child? The answer is clear -- it cannot be done. We are
kindred spirits with our child -- woven together with a chord of eternity --
and for all the days of our life we will be aware that part of us -- part of
our life is missing. And, so we carry this pain the best we know how -- some
days a little softer than others, but the pain of missing our child is always,
always there. May God help us as we try to so hard to go on in our world when
so much of our life is missing! From Silent Grief.com
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