Welcome To PinWheels From Heaven

WELCOME TO PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN. If you would like to have your "Angel" baby's or "Angel" child's name added to my Angel Tree list and Birthday list to be remembered at my annual events please click on the Angel Tree List button found at the top of this page to take you to that page with all the details. These events are for Angel Children only--PLEASE NO fake baby loss mommys.

NOTE: Pinwheel Wait List is currently CLOSED

Be sure to scroll to the end of this page to find links to other Baby Loss Mommies who write Angel Babies Names.


ANNUAL EVENTS FOR PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN:

(1) Once your angel baby/child is on my Angel Birthday List
they will be remembered in their birthday month in a special Angel Birthday blog post and picture. They will also be remembered on their special angel b-day on my PinWheels From Heaven Face book page.

(2) Oct. 15th--Wave of Light: Each year on this date I will be creating a PinWheel Healing Field in my front yard using all the angel baby/child's pinwheels and light candles by the pinwheels in remembrance of all of our angels.

(3) Christmas Angel Tree--For the month of December I will be hanging ornaments with all of your angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. On Christmas Eve I will light candles around the Angel Tree in remembrance of all of our angels.

(4) Easter Angel Tree--For Easter I will be hanging plastic Easter eggs with all of the angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. I will light candles around the tree on Easter in remembrance of all of our angels.

Pictures of events 1,2,3,4 will be posted here on this blog and on my face book page.

At PinWheels From Heaven Angel Babies and Angel Children are ALWAYS LOVED, MISSED AND REMEMBERED <3




Janessa's 10th Angel Birthday

Lilypie Kids Birthday tickers

Hope's 7th Angel Ticker

Lilypie Kids Birthday tickers

Jason's 6th Angel B-day Ticker

Lilypie Kids Birthday tickers

Rae Anne 6th b-day Ticker

Lilypie Kids Birthday tickers

Our Anniversary

Daisypath Anniversary tickers

A Precious Gift--Never Forget Janessa & Hope Abigail

The mention of my daughter's name may bring tears to my eyes, but it never fails to bring music to my ears. If you really want to show me that you care, let me hear the beautiful music of her name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul.

"If you know someone who has lost a child, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died--you're not reminding them. They didn't forget they died.

What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that is a great gift."
-Elizabeth Edwards

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Some Days . . . . .

Today is the day of the week that I miscarried Hope Abigail.  I just feel numb and empty today.  I was happy to receive in the mail today a beautiful pen with Hope and Janessa's name written on it from Ashlen's Angel Pens.  Thank you so much Ashley!!!



It has now been 8 days of wearing yellow shirts in honor of Hope Abigail.  It has actually been a lot of fun to remember her this way.  I saw a yellow shirt the other day with a frowny face on it that said "Take your Happy Attitude somewhere else!"  Okay, I'm in a rotten mood so that actually made me laugh. 

Some days I get tired of seeing happy normal people with what looks to me like their perfect lives, where my life has been not even close to normal or happy for the past 2 years.

Some days I get tired of people trying to hurry me along the grief journey and expect me to get over it already.

Some days I get tired of the lack of sympathy, empathy, and insensitivity towards baby loss mommies.

Some days I get tired of no one remembering that I had 2 other babies too, and they lived short little lives and they have NAMES!

Some days I get tired of seeing babies and toddlers and pregnant women at the store, at church, or it seems like EVERYWHERE I go.

Some days I can't stand hearing people tell me how happy Janessa and Hope are because they are in Heaven and how grateful I should be that they are there and not here in this awful world and that I should just be grateful for the children I have--I AM!  But to me not having my babies in my arms is not a happy thing for me and I will never feel complete happiness knowing they are not here with me.

So yes, some days I get tired of happy people and their happy attitudes with their happy little normal lives and yes, some days I would like to tell them to take their happy attitudes and go somewhere else.  Maybe it's because I'm jealous that I will never have that casual happy normal life ever again.  I'm not saying that I will never find joy or happiness ever again because I know I will find a way to blend this grief into the pattern of my life, but, any happiness and joy that I find will always be mixed with a little sadness, so I guess to steal another blm's term I will be SADAPPY from here on out.

Hugs,
:`) Shauna :`(
:)Janessa & Hope's Mommy:)
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  1. UnknownMay 5, 2012 at 11:11 PM

    Shauna I feel your pain, it is a difficult path we are on. I am saying a prayer for you now my friend. (((BIG HUGS)))

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At times there appears to be no light at the tunnel's end-no dawn to break the night's darkness. . .We feel abandoned, heartbroken, alone. If you find yourself in such a situation, I plead with you to turn to our Heavenly Father in faith. He will lift you and guide you. He will not always take your afflictions from you, but He will comfort and lead you with love through whatever storm you face.

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