A Caged Tiger

Today I feel like a caged tiger pacing back and forth inside my grief cage.  I feel trapped, I feel sad, I feel like a failure, I feel jealous, I feel angry, I feel EMPTY!  Back and forth I pace remembering just a couple of weeks ago the freedom I felt as I had been let out of my grief cage and was moving forward on my grief journey only to be slammed back inside the cage after only a couple months of freedom!!  What did I do to deserve being thrust inside this grief cage 3 times now?!!!!  This sucks so bad—why did this have to happen to me again—I hate this stupid grief cage!!!  I feel so torn apart and half crazy—I want to flee from all this sorrow—but there is no where far enough that I could go that it would not find me and thrust me back into the grief cage.  So now I pace back and forth, back and forth, until I’ve done my time inside the grief cage again and am allowed my freedom once more.