PinWheels From Heaven: How do I feel????????

Welcome To PinWheels From Heaven

WELCOME TO PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN. If you would like to have your "Angel" baby's or "Angel" child's name added to my Angel Tree list and Birthday list to be remembered at my annual events please click on the Angel Tree List button found at the top of this page to take you to that page with all the details. These events are for Angel Children only--PLEASE NO fake baby loss mommys.

NOTE: Pinwheel Wait List is currently CLOSED

Be sure to scroll to the end of this page to find links to other Baby Loss Mommies who write Angel Babies Names.

ANNUAL EVENTS FOR PINWHEELS FROM HEAVEN:

(1) Once your angel baby/child is on my Angel Birthday List
they will be remembered in their birthday month in a special Angel Birthday blog post and picture. They will also be remembered on their special angel b-day on my PinWheels From Heaven Face book page.

(2) Oct. 15th--Wave of Light: Each year on this date I will be creating a PinWheel Healing Field in my front yard using all the angel baby/child's pinwheels and light candles by the pinwheels in remembrance of all of our angels.

(3) Christmas Angel Tree--For the month of December I will be hanging ornaments with all of your angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. On Christmas Eve I will light candles around the Angel Tree in remembrance of all of our angels.

(4) Easter Angel Tree--For Easter I will be hanging plastic Easter eggs with all of the angel baby/children's names written on them on my outside angel tree. I will light candles around the tree on Easter in remembrance of all of our angels.

Pictures of events 1,2,3,4 will be posted here on this blog and on my face book page.

At PinWheels From Heaven Angel Babies and Angel Children are ALWAYS LOVED, MISSED AND REMEMBERED <3

A Precious Gift--Never Forget Janessa & Hope Abigail

The mention of my daughter's name may bring tears to my eyes, but it never fails to bring music to my ears. If you really want to show me that you care, let me hear the beautiful music of her name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul.

"If you know someone who has lost a child, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died--you're not reminding them. They didn't forget they died.

What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that is a great gift."
-Elizabeth Edwards

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

How do I feel????????

The bleeding has slowed to nothing now, this makes me feel:

RELIEVED because I am so tired of a constant reminder of my miscarriage,

SAD, because now the last connections to my baby is slowly disappearing,

ANGRY because this is what it should have been like last week just light spotting then disappearing and my baby still safe inside me,

and EMPTY.

My neighbor found out about Jason and called to say she was bringing us dinner yesterday. She must have been inspired because she brought us bake potatoes and meatloaf which is my favorite "comfort foods". This was probably the first real meal I haven't had to force myself to eat since last Wednesday--I just don't have a desire to eat--it just seems so pointless right now because my baby is not there for me to take care of anymore.

I'm trying to put the Pinwheel Healing Field together today for the Wave of Light and Baby Loss Awareness Day. I was so excited for this day and to be able to share this experience with Jason as together we put out all the pinwheels and remembered his angel sisters Janessa and Hope. Now I feel lost as I do this alone and empty while having to put out 3 giant pinwheels instead of 2.

Picture of the Sunrise this morning Oct. 15, 2013

The PinWheel that is for all the Angel Friends We haven't Met yet and the 4 pinwheels for the angel babies still on the waiting list.

My Angel Babies' PinWheels in the Sunrise

A "Hug From Heaven" Airplane right over Jason's PinWheel

--airplanes are one of my symbols for him

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Be Still and Know that I am God

Sometimes God
Calms the Storm . . .
Sometimes He let's the Storm rage
and Calms His Child.
Author Unknown

At times there appears to be no light at the tunnel's end-no dawn to break the night's darkness. . .We feel abandoned, heartbroken, alone. If you find yourself in such a situation, I plead with you to turn to our Heavenly Father in faith. He will lift you and guide you. He will not always take your afflictions from you, but He will comfort and lead you with love through whatever storm you face.

-President Thomas S. Monson

We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.
-Joseph Campbell